29 and feeling fine

Hi!  I know it’s been about two months since I posted. I entered a funk and didn’t really feel like posting negative things online. I figured taking a little break would be good.

Over the past little bit I had a couple more interviews (phone and in person) but still nothing yet. I’ve registered with another agency and I’m hoping it brings more luck.

A couple weeks ago I decided that I need to let go of all the negative stuff and be more positive. My life isn’t that bad. Actually it’s not bad at all. So I decided to stop sulking and move one. I stared reading a couple books and they’ve seem to be helping. I’ll try to do a review on those later. But besides that everything else is good.

On Tuesday (May 13^th) I turned 29. Oh boy, the last year before the big 3-0. My week was filled with surprises. I was finding my presents in my work bag, around my apartment. And then on Friday, my boyfriend and Lola threw me a surprise birthday party. To say I was shocked is an understatement. My reaction was so slow. I had no idea what was going on. I had a great time with my family and friends. Last night showed me how truly blessed I am. I have amazing people in my life, my health, a home, a job. There are no reasons for me to ever not be happy. I get that from time to time we get into moods. But going forward I refuse to take it the level I’ve been I the last few weeks. I have so much to going for me. Yeah I don’t like my job but something is coming and it will be here soon.

I’m going to try my best to come up with a schedule for this blog/journal. And hopefully it works this time.  I am back in school now so hopefully I’ll able to manage it all.

Oh and to help with my positivity I will start writing in a gratitude journal. I figured this would be a a way to remind myself things are actually pretty good.

Where Am I Going?

I don’t even know where to start. The past few months have been a bit emotional and mentally draining. Looking back I always thought that by 28 I’d have a house, married, maybe a child and loving my career. When I turned 25 I realized yeah maybe not so much. I’ve learned that you can’t really put timelines on things like that. I’m learning that nothing happens before its time and sometimes what we have planned maybe isn’t even all that great.

The past couple of months I’ve been questioning what I want to do career wise. When I graduated from university an accounting job fell into my lap. Five years later I’m at the same company, working towards my accounting designation and completely miserable. When I think back I never really wanted to be in accounting. It just happened.

I’ve done a few things ‘just because’ and as I’ve gotten older, I know better than to do things ‘just because’. Life is too short for that.

So after speaking with my lovely support system I’ve started doing some soul searching. Maybe accounting isn’t for me. I find it boring.  And after speaking to my mentor and a few co-workers I’ve been told accounting is boring. People don’t go into accounting for excitement. They go into it because it can be rather easy but it is stable and can pay well.  I’m all for stability and great pay, but I hate being bored. I’m not much of the creative type but when I have ideas they tend to be good.  So what’s a girl to do? Dig deep.

I have a few ideas flowing around in my head but after having a good discussion with my sissy and Mr. Man last night, I think I’ve found something that I’m really interested in and would like to give it a shot. I just need to research it a bit more. I don’t want to make any quick decisions and end up regretting it later.  After all this is my life, my future we’re talking about.

This morning I woke up happy and excited about what my future could possibly hold. On my way to work I did the usual; check my instagram, facebook, twitter and of course my horoscope.  I can’t say I religiously follow the horoscope thing but I do find it entertaining.  The message in today’s horoscope couldn’t have any better timing.  I guess my horoscope confirms it.  It really is time to start exploring and digging deep.