I know, it’s been awhile

After staying late at work a few days, I started to think if me working in 2 divisions was such a good idea.  I spoke to my mentor and she told me if it was too much I could give something up. She also explained that if I were to work in project management that it too would be just as crazy.  I completely get that, I know that.  And I also know that every organization has its problems.  I told her I’d tough it out some more before I make a decision.  Everything else was fine, it was just month end.  Maybe if I adjust my schedule during that week, everything would be okay.  I went back to my desk and worked.  Time flew.  I finished an assignment I was working on.  I had to track some contractors’ cost see if it was within a certain budget.  I personally didn’t think it was a big deal until I received an email from one of the IT directors.  He told me he appreciated my help tracking the contractors’ cost and that it was a part of a $1.3M budget for his division.  I had no clue it was this big, I figured I was just doing my job.  He went on to say he looks forward to working with me on the remainder of the project and thanks for the support.  I was in shock. I told him he was welcome and that I look forward to assisting him. Sometimes when you feel like giving up, don’t.  The light is just at the end of the tunnel.

After dealing with the craziness of month end last week at work, I decided to take a little break.  Good thing I had a ladies night planned.

We stopped and got fish and chips from one of our favourite places.  Because I was so tired from my draining week (I think we all were) we headed home to nap before our night of fun.  After my nap, I got ready and headed over to Lola’s house for some predrinking.  We finished a bottle of wine (Ménage à Trois, a go-to favourite) in 20 mins and then off to the club we went.  As soon as we walked in we were dancing, the music was great.  However we noticed that our friend (Lola’s roommate) Nicki didn’t seemed like she was having as much fun as we were.  A visit of to the bar was needed.  After our shots Nicki was feeling great.  We had great night, no hassles.  The next day I woke up and my ears where ringing and I had a slight headache. I guess things change as you get older.

I spent the rest of the weekend relaxing because I knew that starting Monday I would be back to night school, something I wasn’t looking forward to. Speaking of which, I have some homework I need to get to

If You Need to Cry, Go Outside

I can honestly say that by Wednesday I was over this work week (keep in mind Monday was a holiday). I tried going into work with a smile and thinking positive thoughts. Unfortunately the smile faded by lunch time.  Month-end (technically the beginning of the month) is one of the busiest times when you work in the finance department of a corporation. Expenses need to be booked, income needs to be verified and a whole lot of sh!t needs to be accounted for.  Everything needs to be uploaded into the system by the 5 business day so the company can update its balance sheet for their shareholders… in other words, pure chaos.  I’m shocked I don’t pull out my hair and scream profanities at the top of my lungs.  Not only do I work in the treasury department but I also help with reconciling and booking entries for our IT accounts.  While everyone else has to deal with one job at month end, I’m dealing with two. Yay me!

At first I didn’t mind because it’s (somewhat) good experience and it could help me in the future.  I try to look at everything as a stepping stone. Meaning it may not be something I want to do, but it will get me to where I want to go. But since I’m not sure I want to do accounting anymore, this stepping stone has become a pebble in my shoe.

During month end I expect the worst to happen; just so I can prepare myself when the bad does happen, that way I’m kind of prepared for it.  This week a few incidents happened and I had to take some deep breathers.  I tried my hardest not to crack. Especially after remembering that work knows no emotion.  But yesterday was hard. I had to deal with a manager who thinks insulting jokes are funny and a coordinator who tries to make you feel like you’re wrong when in fact she’s the one who made the mistake.  I don’t know if my emotions were high but I left.  I left my desk and went for a walk.  As soon as I was outside I called Mr. Man and let him know what was going on. He tried to calm me down and reminded me that this was just a process. My intentions aren’t to say here forever; again this is just a stepping stone. He went on to tell me that I shouldn’t let them see me upset.  I agreed, since I was now outside with tears rolling down my face.  He told me to ‘woman up’ and get back in there.  So I did.  I dried my tears and went back in.  The rest of the day was a blur, until I got a message.

Alex messaged me with good news.  Her co-worker was available to meet up sooner than we thought.  We have a meeting set up for next week Thursday.  I’m so excited.  Alex’s message came at the right time.

After work I met up with Lola.  Honestly she is the best.  We’re one those people who thinks food (and wine) cures all, so we went to Chipotle. We sat there for a good 2+ hours eating and talking.  After a long busy day, a friend and food is exactly what I needed. After dinner I came home and tried to prepare for today.

I wish I could say today was way better than yesterday but I’m starting to see that everyday has its issues.  Today I was working on a spreadsheet, I was focused and determined to get everything done. And of course, my computer had a mind of its own. Right when everything was starting to make sense, my computer decided it would show me a lovely blue screen and reboot itself.  All I could do was laugh and let it roll off my back. I finally left the office at 6, nothing like a nice 10hr day.

Now I sit here exhausted, looking at my apartment that could use some tidying, only to remember my mom will be over in less than an hour.  I guess I should get to it.  It’s amazing how much cleaning you can get done when someone is coming over.