A December to remember…part two

Do you ever have a dream, wake up and think ‘what the hell does that mean?!’ Well that’s what happened to me. I had a dream I went out dancing with my dad and sister.  We were having a good time until I looked down at my feet and noticed I didn’t have any shoes on.  I thought it was weird because who dances without shoes and in my dream I had the memory of wearing shoes. As I looked ahead of me I saw three brand new pairs of shoes waiting for me. I walked up and chose a pair…then woke up.

As soon as the sleep is out of my eyes I head over to Dream Moods (there’s an app) to see what the dream meant. I look up dancing and it states ‘To dream that you are dancing signifies freedom from any constraints and restrictions. Your life is in balance and in harmony. Dancing also represents frivolity, happiness, gracefulness, sensuality and sexual desires. You need to incorporate these qualities in your waking life….To dream that you are attending or going to a dance indicates a celebration and your attempts to achieve happiness. Consider the phrase the “dance of life” which suggests creation, ecstasy, and going with what life has to offer you.’ Okay, not bad. Next I look up the number three.  It tells me the number ‘three signifies life, vitality, inner strength, completion, imagination, creativity, energy, self-exploration and experience. Three stands for a trilogy, as in the past, present, and future or father, mother, and child or body, mind, and soul, etc. Dream of the number three may be telling you that the third time is the charm.’ Okay, so far so good. Next I look shoes.  ‘In general, shoes represent your approach to life. Wearing shoes in your dream suggests that you are well-grounded or down to earth. It also represents your convictions about your beliefs. If you are changing your shoes, then it refers to your changing roles. You are taking a new approach to life. If you forget your shoes, then it suggests that you are leaving behind your inhibitions. You are refusing to conform to some idea or attitude. To see old and worn shoes in your dream indicates that you will find success through hard work and diligence. You have come to terms about who you are….To dream that you are not wearing any shoes indicates that you have low self-esteem and a lack of confidence in yourself. You are dealing with issues about your self-identity.  Alternatively, to dream that you are not wearing shoes represent your playful attitudes and relaxed, carefree frame of mind. You have a firm grasp and good understanding on a situation. If you dream that you lose your shoes, then it suggests that you are searching for your identity and finding yourself.’

So what did I take from this…Um, I’m soul searching, sometimes I’m too hard on myself and a change and good things are coming :). Anyways time to get ready for work.

At work that day we had a pizza lunch with cake to celebrate the work anniversaries. My manager gave a little speech and thanked us for all of hard work and said how much she appreciates us. She also told us that changes are coming…joy.  My mentor (who happens to be my manger’s boss) gave a speech as well thanking us for our hard work but also told us to get out while we still can lol. Just as everyone was finishing up their cake, my phone rang. It was a private number. I don’t usually answer private numbers but something told me to. I dismissed myself from the party and found a quiet corner in the lunch room to take the call. I answered it and was ecstatic to find out that it was a HR rep from a company I had applied to. I had a phone interview right there on the spot. Although I was prepared for it, I felt like my personality came through a lot more. She told me I’d hear back from her in the next couple of days. I went back to my desk smiling and feeling confident. That was two phone interviews in two days. I was on a roll and then I humbled myself. No need to get overly excited because I still had a ways to go.

I spent the next few days studying for my exam. It was hard to focus because all I could think about was the second phone interview I had. Monday morning I was doing some last minute review for my exam when my phone rang, another private number. I started shaking, nerves. I just knew it was the HR rep calling back from my second phone interview. I let the call go to voice mail. She left me a message saying the hiring manger wanted to meet with me.  Good thing this was a message I was listening to because I let out a little scream.  As soon as I calmed my nerves, I called her back and set up a time to go in for an interview the upcoming Thursday. I couldn’t believe this was really happening. Once I was finished smiling my face off, I got ready and left to write my exam.

Once the exam was out of the way I spent the rest of the week preparing for the interview. What was I going to wear? What are they going to ask me? How am I going to answer? Thank goodness for Lola, she saved me and let me borrow a nice navy blue button down shirt to wear under my blazer.  Mr. Man would randomly ask me interview questions to help me prepare.  Shaunie and Aly were very supportive and told me not worry, I would knock them dead.  And there were was my family who told me the job was already mine and I just had to claim it.

Maybe my dream was right, maybe I’d be changing roles….

I know, it’s been awhile

After staying late at work a few days, I started to think if me working in 2 divisions was such a good idea.  I spoke to my mentor and she told me if it was too much I could give something up. She also explained that if I were to work in project management that it too would be just as crazy.  I completely get that, I know that.  And I also know that every organization has its problems.  I told her I’d tough it out some more before I make a decision.  Everything else was fine, it was just month end.  Maybe if I adjust my schedule during that week, everything would be okay.  I went back to my desk and worked.  Time flew.  I finished an assignment I was working on.  I had to track some contractors’ cost see if it was within a certain budget.  I personally didn’t think it was a big deal until I received an email from one of the IT directors.  He told me he appreciated my help tracking the contractors’ cost and that it was a part of a $1.3M budget for his division.  I had no clue it was this big, I figured I was just doing my job.  He went on to say he looks forward to working with me on the remainder of the project and thanks for the support.  I was in shock. I told him he was welcome and that I look forward to assisting him. Sometimes when you feel like giving up, don’t.  The light is just at the end of the tunnel.

After dealing with the craziness of month end last week at work, I decided to take a little break.  Good thing I had a ladies night planned.

We stopped and got fish and chips from one of our favourite places.  Because I was so tired from my draining week (I think we all were) we headed home to nap before our night of fun.  After my nap, I got ready and headed over to Lola’s house for some predrinking.  We finished a bottle of wine (Ménage à Trois, a go-to favourite) in 20 mins and then off to the club we went.  As soon as we walked in we were dancing, the music was great.  However we noticed that our friend (Lola’s roommate) Nicki didn’t seemed like she was having as much fun as we were.  A visit of to the bar was needed.  After our shots Nicki was feeling great.  We had great night, no hassles.  The next day I woke up and my ears where ringing and I had a slight headache. I guess things change as you get older.

I spent the rest of the weekend relaxing because I knew that starting Monday I would be back to night school, something I wasn’t looking forward to. Speaking of which, I have some homework I need to get to